Saturday, January 29, 2011

I will greatly multiply thy sorrow....in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children;

...why?!?
greatly increase your size...
that includes your ankles, feet, hands, nose, lips, hips, etc...not to mention the tummy...
"you'll have to thank Eve one day" my husband says sarcastically...
but the thing is, I will...not for this...but for the fact that I can even have children...
her insight and actions, though premature...were right on...
I am grateful for her...
there are many who don't get this privilege on earth...

who ever heard of someones teeth/jaw becoming misaligned during pregnancy???
I understand better the depression and anxiety of others during these last months...
never really had that like this before...

when did the month of january get to be soooo long??
ever seen those fat suits? I have one on right now...
sometimes when I look in the mirror, I can see myself peeking out of it through squinty eye slots...

I feel like I have a disability...
in some ways, I do, for sure...

on the other hand...when physical disability hits, other things in life drop out of priority...
all of a sudden, I'm not nagging my kids/hubby so much about "things"...
I don't even care about those things right now...
what kind of vanity do you want in the bathroom? what color paint in the office? honestly, just something that looks nice...you choose...I'm sure you will choose something great...
oh, you made a mistake...well, I'm sure you will work it out...
wet the bed for the 5th day in a row? whatever, clean it up...
in the same pj's...all day long...for the 3rd day in a row? hmmm, that's nice, lucky you...

...still...over a month to go...
somedays I say, just skip the epidural and knock me out completely...
nesting for a little boy is fun though...
priorities seem to be good...
...just enjoy this...it'll be over before I know it...

7 comments:

Holly Burnah said...

Almost there- you can do it! I remember feeling a lot like that with Mac... and Sara-ughh. You want to come over for a play date? You can lay on the couch and I'll watch the kids... and make you lunch. :) Hang in there!

Shayla Shumaker said...

Yes, yes, YES! Very well expressed, and I can TOTALLY relate. I'm right there with you. Except I DO keep thinking "6 weeks 5 days...6 weeks 5 days...". Need something to break up the next little while? Do you wanna come over here, or shall I invite myself over there? BTW- after last time, I bought a new doorbell. It will never happen again!!! So embarrassingly sorry!

hairprincess said...

Yea that is so true and I just want to copy and paste your whole post to my blog! haha why do we put ourselves through this? Oh yea for those cute kids:) Worth it as it is it sure is tough! I wish I could at least take off my fat suit! :0) One month we can do it!!!

Madills said...

I remember those feelings all too well! And still have a bit of a form of that now at times! House is a mess... I am a mess.. just want to sleep for a few more hours just one day a week! Hang in there! I think you are amazing!!

John, Mica, Jackson and Grace said...

That's my Chelsy! You have fun eh!? :) You can do it... so sorry I didn't call you on Saturday to help out... we ended up not going down to Lehi at all, but after reading this I felt like I should've just to come take the kids and let you "hang out" at home. haha! :)
Love you!

Katie said...

You make beautiful kids and I am so happy that you are getting a little boy! Thankfully they are so cute you forget how miserable pregnancy is!

MarkandMaren said...

You know the jaw misalignment you said? It is most likely because the joints in your body are loosening, getting ready to have the baby. The hips are usually the worst and take a few weeks to go back to normal. But all your joints will do that. I know, kind of useless info, but that will take care of itself after you have him. :) Eyesight usually gets a little worse, too, because of water retention. Our bodies have to deal with a lot to bring these sweet kids into our families. ((HUGS))