Monday, January 31, 2011

support...

....support...sure has brought me out of my depression for the moment...
that is one nice thing about pregnancy, you can count on many many people understanding
empathizing
completely.
...but when you are in it, in that own little world of yours
you kinda forget all the support around you.
I would love play dates guys!
Thanks for offering!
(that is, if I can drag myself out)
I feel better for now...
thanks :)

Saturday, January 29, 2011

I will greatly multiply thy sorrow....in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children;

...why?!?
greatly increase your size...
that includes your ankles, feet, hands, nose, lips, hips, etc...not to mention the tummy...
"you'll have to thank Eve one day" my husband says sarcastically...
but the thing is, I will...not for this...but for the fact that I can even have children...
her insight and actions, though premature...were right on...
I am grateful for her...
there are many who don't get this privilege on earth...

who ever heard of someones teeth/jaw becoming misaligned during pregnancy???
I understand better the depression and anxiety of others during these last months...
never really had that like this before...

when did the month of january get to be soooo long??
ever seen those fat suits? I have one on right now...
sometimes when I look in the mirror, I can see myself peeking out of it through squinty eye slots...

I feel like I have a disability...
in some ways, I do, for sure...

on the other hand...when physical disability hits, other things in life drop out of priority...
all of a sudden, I'm not nagging my kids/hubby so much about "things"...
I don't even care about those things right now...
what kind of vanity do you want in the bathroom? what color paint in the office? honestly, just something that looks nice...you choose...I'm sure you will choose something great...
oh, you made a mistake...well, I'm sure you will work it out...
wet the bed for the 5th day in a row? whatever, clean it up...
in the same pj's...all day long...for the 3rd day in a row? hmmm, that's nice, lucky you...

...still...over a month to go...
somedays I say, just skip the epidural and knock me out completely...
nesting for a little boy is fun though...
priorities seem to be good...
...just enjoy this...it'll be over before I know it...